Lyrics and composition: Elik Harpaz Guitar & singing: Ayelet Ben Ishay Viola & singing: Elik Harpaz

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Lyrics (For translation to Arabic & Hebrew, comment on this video and I'll send you a copy):

Why do I feel so lonely inside? ‘Cause all of my society’s supporting genocide. My father Supporting genocide My mother Denying genocide My brother Committing genocide My uncle Demanding genocide

Good morning, Elik

Hi Mr. Therapist

Come on into my office, come on, come sit down, make yourself comfortable. How are you doing this morning?

Not so well, I have to be honest, not so well.

Come tell me, what’s going on with you?

I feel a little bit of depression and also anxiety. I feel I cannot take part in the society. Is it them or is it me? I don’t know, I mean, every time I pick up my phone I see images that I think no human being should see in the 21st century, like exploding bodies, mothers crying, babies dying and you know, I think we all have part of it I think you also, you know, maybe it’s your husband there maybe it’s my friends, it’s my lover I don’t know what to do you know and I feel I cannot function, I cannot function anymore oh will you help me Mr. Therapist I feel I’m dying please… just say something say something, please!!!

Ok ok ok! Elik, why don’t we take a deep deep breath together- inhale and exhale. Why don’t you repeat after me: I am here

I am here

I am safe

I am safe

Nothing can hurt me

Nothing can hurt me

Good. And you know, these times they’re really hard on everybody

Everybody, yes you’re not alone

Yes I’m not alone

It’s so important to take care of ourselves

I’m taking care of myself

And maybe turn your phone off

I’ll turn my phone off

And meditate and do yoga and try not to be exposed to all this noise and try and just be right here right now

But it’s happening right now. It’s happening right now don’t you see that’s what’s bothering me, it’s happening right now even in this moment, even at this moment right now and I feel I cannot… It’s happening right now, do you understand you tell me to be in the now but this is what happens right now don’t you understand?! It’s happening right now, It’s happening right now but It’s happening right now!!!

Elik! What’s happening right now? The genocide?

Oh. Well, I appreciate the work that we’re doing together, Elik, but I don’t feel comfortable with you using that word you know, we have to understand that there are perspectives and narratives and it’s so important to respect other people’s opinions and it personally hurts me to hear you using that word…

Why do I feel so lonely inside?! Why do you feel so lonely inside?

‘Cause all of my society Deprived of its’ morality And I feel I’ve got nowhere to hide!

Because Why do I feel so lonely inside? ‘Cause all of my society’s supporting genocide. Why do you feel so lonely inside? ‘Cause all of your society’s supporting genocide. My father, my mother, my sister, my brother My father, my mother, my sister, my brother My brother, my lawyer, my teacher- Everybody! Supporting genocide.

Oh and Elik? Before we end I just want to remind you to pay for the past four sessions. Thank you.

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Thank you Roy Geva for the soundtrack